Alan Watts

There are two great theories in astronomy going on right now about the origination of the universe. One is called the explosion theory, and the other is called the steady state theory. The steady state people say there never was a time when the world began, it's always expanding, yes, but as a result of free hydrogen in space, the free hydrogen coagulates and makes new galaxies. But the other people say there was a primoridial explosion, an enormous bang billions of years ago which flung all the galazies into space. Well let's take that just for the sake of argument and say that was the way it happened.

It's like you took a bottle of ink and you threw it at a wall. Smash! And all that ink spread. And in the middle, it's dense, isn't it? And as it gets out on the edge, the little droplets get finer and finer and make more complicated patterns, see? So in the same way, there was a big bang at the beginning of things and it spread. And you and I, sitting here in this room, as complicated human beings, are way, way out on the fringe of that bang. We are the complicated little patterns on the end of it. Very interesting. But so we define ourselves as being only that. If you think that you are only inside your skin, you define yourself as one very complicated little curlique, way out on the edge of that explosion. Way out in space, and way out in time. Billions of years ago, you were a big bang, but now you're a complicated human being. And then we cut ourselves off, and don't feel that we're still the big bang. But you are. Depends how you define yourself. You are actually--if this is the way things started, if there was a big bang in the beginning-- you're not something that's a result of the big bang. You're not something that is a sort of puppet on the end of the process. You are still the process. You are the big bang, the original force of the universe, coming on as whoever you are. When I meet you, I see not just what you define yourself as--Mr so-and- so, Ms so-and-so, Mrs so-and-so--I see every one of you as the primordial energy of the universe coming on at me in this particular way. I know I'm that, too. But we've learned to define ourselves as separate from it.

-Alan Watts - "Out of your mind" series, "A wiggly world"

Love and Life and taking action.

Life. Its interesting how fragile and strong we are. Love and hate, grief and abundance, support and solitude. Polars. Life and death. there is no good, no bad, there just is. Its the human condition which puts labels on it all. Emotion, love compassion, we are so lucky to be able to feel, without it what would it be worth.

So many of us spend the majority of our time doing things that we arent happy with. work for example, some spend their whole lives working working for money, to buy things, accumulating "things" to build the "happiness" they need. To go on that vacation, to buy that new car, to buy that new dress, all external. They say money cant buy happiness. This is true to a point, Obviously we need to make money to get by in todays society to get by, to use as a stepping stone in order to live the life we dream of, but what happens when you buy that car or take that vacation and find yourself driving to or coming back from vacation to the job which keeps you staring at the clock like a mad man, picking at your nails till the clock ticks 5pm? What then?

So many of us feel like we need to always be doing productive things, doing doing doing doing. We are human BEINGS not human doings. What is it all worth if we cant sit, and be, comfortable, just being, with ourselves? not much.

Thats the scariest part though huh? because if we take that time, to just listen to ourselves, and breath, thats when the real work comes. facing our demons, facing our weaknesses. Sometimes thats just too much for people to handle, and so the years go by, married to the people they arent in love with anymore, stuck in a job they hate, until one day, when old and gray, all of it hits at once... midlife crisis or late life crisis... all i know is thats not going to be me.

the last few years have been the biggest struggle, and the most beautiful moments of my life have been strewn about in it all. knowing now what i want, who i dont want to be, what i want to learn, and most importantly, knowing that i love myself, good and bad, weak or strong, tears or laughter, its all me!

its all you too. love it. learn it. feel it.

most importantly, we all have to TAKE ACTION. dont just talk about it.

that includes love, how we earn our money, the way we treat eachother, the way we treat ourselves (which by the way, during this metamorphosis, we have to be easy on ourselves. noone is perfect, we have all made decisions we arent happy with, we have all hurt people, we have all "failed" at things, and its ok, because thats the only way it could have happened, because thats all we knew at the time, thats the only way we couldve reacted, but the difference, is once we realize these things, and come to terms with them, and get to know the way we react to situations, and get to know what works for our body chemistry and get to know what we really want deep inside, thats when the decisions we make change, the actions change, subconsciously and consciously we start working for a higher consciousness, a life worth living.

and by the way. .get active! go to the gym, climb mountains, run on the dirt roads, play in the snow, dance, go to a yoga class... thats half the battle. we arent meant to be sedentary, we are animals. Society says "adhd is on the rise, bipolar is on the rise, obesity is on the rise, insomnia is on the rise", maybe thats because people arent active enough? it doesnt seem like brain science to me. There is too much craziness going on in the world to try and sort it out sitting down. Our minds arent meant to work like that. Get the electricity moving through your body, its amazing how our thoughts will clear up and the path we need to take will show itself.

also read. i dont even have to go into that one. we live ON the information superhighway. you are never too old, too young, too anything to learn and allow the flood of information available create new river beds in our minds.

enough of my rambling. love yourself, love everyone you meet, have compassion most of all, love the trees and the sun and the mountains, because everything IS everything, the universe is you and you are the universe and you are the vibrations hitting your eardrum which makes the most beautiful song.